2003-01-13 3:40 p.m.
all you want is a beauty queen. not a superstar but everybody's dream machine

i'm not your slave. i'm not your bitch. i'm not here just to come around at your beckoned call. i'm trying to be strong and you're making me look bad. what we had was beautiful and it's a shame that we both had to let it go. but the point is, we let it go. and i'm moving foward. you hurt me so bad when you pulled away. and now that you're coming back,...

just,...no.

i would if i could, but no. this isn't me anymore. i am completely over it and i hope that you can respect that.

i know you very well and i know that this is just making you sick. and i know that you will fight until you get what you what. but i'm stronger than you think and you're not going to get your way. you're not going to have me back. it isn't even a consideration right now.

i am happy and i am in love and that is all that matters.

we can be friends and it will go no further. a few months ago i would have killed to hear those words from you. but the point is, you didn't realize it soon enough because you're just too stubborn. i hope you've learned something.

i am good and i am not something you just throw away.

and with that, i'm out.

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