i want to die. over and over and over again.

he didn't want me. he never did. he totally used me. and didn't feel anything at all.

i miss francisco. i would kill to take back everything that i ever did to hurt him. preferrably myself.

i want to stab myself in the stomache and just watch myself bleed until i die.

i will never be whole again.

will i ever be loved again?

i feel like such an idiot for crying. im such a bastard. and self-absorbed. he only kissed me because i am a pretty girl.

and i am nothing more than a pretty girl.

if someone could just shoot me, that would be great.

thanks.

i actually thought i was falling in love with that boy.

idiot. idiot. idiot.

i am falling apart.

rock &roll